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4 miles today.

Did two two mile walks with a rest in between. I am so proud of my back.

I know people like to use Buddyslim to complain and I am welcome to. However I have a no complaining policy. I know it is a way to release some of the energy, however I know I can find better ways to release that energy. I have enough imagination to create a better way.

I had some set backs and weighed all the up to 336, which is the most I have ever weighed. Funny part is, I have felt a lot worse at 300, so I am going by feeling. Since I got up that high, I am now back down to 328, which is 8 pounds lighter and feeling better.

My back is feeling much better. Not 100% healed, however feeling better everyday. I haven’t restarted the Resistance training yet. I have started to go on walks. Today I did 3 miles with a break between each mile. I think that is pretty good. I do feel I could have pushed it each time to 1.5 miles, however I am taking it slow. I look forward to taking breaks because I am tired.

I haven’t written in about 3 weeks. That is because my back has been hurting. I do not like coming onto buddyslim when I am in pain. I just want buddyslim to be associated with happiness.

Yesterday I went for my first walk. I will go for another walk today. My eating has been good.

I hope everyone is doing awesome!

OK for reals now. My eating has been bad. I think I have been eating worse since I have made the decision to eat better. Sometimes I am such a polarity responder. Especially one the wrong end of the polarity.

On a plus note my working out was pretty good last month. Still not great, however pretty good is better than bad.

I cannot say that I am frustrated, because I do not feel frustrated. I do not feel anything really. Still it is something I want. I guess I need to convince myself that being under 300lbs is at least better feeling than eating ice cream. If there is anything I need to work on is delaying gratification. I spend too much time satisfying my urges now instead of weighing the pros and cons of the situation. I think that will help in all my situations.

June is delay gratification month! This month I will be working on delaying my gratification.

My weight isn’t falling off like I like it too. I would like to reverse my buddyslim tracker. It just keeps on going up :p.

Doesn’t matter in the long run. What matters is what I am doing today. My exercising has been really good. My eating has been so-so. I just love food so much. Still I can love food without eating lots of it.

The sit up and push up loggers are down tonight. I do not want to miss putting in my progress. So I guess I will have to put it on here.

So I did day 2 of both the push up and the sit up work out. With 17 maximum push ups and 30 maximum sit ups. The sit ups were surprising because I did not think I could do 20. I just kept on going. I guess i am going to have to kick that up a notch.

There has been an idea swirling around in my head in the last few days.  I like this website called the Authentic Men Program. A few weeks ago they started something called a “no woman diet”.  About two days ago I got the idea that it would be a good idea to do something like that. I have so much on my plate that spending energy on dating might not be the best idea for me right now. Plus I have been leaking so much of my sexual energy lately. Just looking at women and thinking how much I want to, well you know. That isn’t how I want to represent myself to myself or how I want to show up. The no woman diet for me would be just letting go of the looking for women to date or have “relations” with. Just hang out with the women in my life and appreciate them for the goddesses they are.

If you are a woman you are a goddess. Doesn’t matter what you look like or how you show up.

Hey Everybody! I am doing great. Last week I give myself a C+. That is passing :P. Not super great, however I did some walking, some working out and cut down on a few binges. Well didn’t eat a tub of ice cream every night at least.

My healthy meal that I like to eat is called, “The Ultimate Meal”. It is super healthy and used to be super effective. Filled me up for hours and fun stuff like that. However the newest version of it hurts my tummy and makes me feel kind of sick and a little sad. Like I feel down until around noon. Maybe it will take my body some time to adjust. Still it wasn’t easy to eat before as it isn’t super yummy. Much better with blueberries and strawberries.

One of my best female friends showed me two sites http://hundredpushups.com and  http://www.twohundredsitups.com. She is going to start doing it. The thought of her being able to do 100 push up and me unable to, well, heck no. I am going to do this program and do 100 push ups. Plus I did want to do sit ups anyways to strengthen my core so you know what is better. I am sure push ups help that as well.

I am going to start today! Hooray!

It is funny to me how much I am taking on this month and next month. I am allowing everything to happen at once. I need to find a new job in a month or I will lose my new car. I am re-branding my website and going to release my ebook out into the world! I am putting emphasis on my weight as I feel it is time to become healthier. If not now, then when?

In the last two weeks I have done a really good job on the work out department. I would say I did a slamming job. Do kids say slamming anymore? I got all woot woot, as I dinged up my exercise Jonas Brothers. That sounded hip right? I am not a fan of my eating choices the last month.
So right now I am going to make a statement to myself and everyone at buddy slim that I am going to make better food choices. Starting with this Kombucha right here. Mmmm mmm Kombucha, you can really taste the 2,000 year old wisdom in each drop!

Weekends are when I decide I want to eat everything that is in front of me. It is like I have so much free time so I better spend it eating.

On a positive note yesterday I did my morning workout and then walked two miles with a rest in between each mile.
Today I walked 5 miles with a rest in between each mile.

Working out makes he hungrier and when I am really hungry I like eating my favorite foods.

Also I am noticing that working out is increasing the testosterone if you catch my drift. Since I am single without a friend with benefits, I also use food to cure those cravings as well. I wonder why ice cream works so well with those cravings. I can see my future, “Oh honey not tonight I have a headache, here is a tub of that ice cream you love so much.” A tummy full of ice cream makes it so I just want to cuddle.

I am really proud of myself this week. I did a full week of exercises. It has been a while since I have done that and I have added with the two days of walking. I have been doing really well since I did my ritual a week ago.

I should create a celebration ritual. One that does not have a tub of ice cream. Maybe dancing to Walking on Sunshine. That song makes me feel good. Mostly because it tells me it is time to feel good. If you are not a child of the 80s I suggest listening to that song and try in vain not to feel good.

Another good song is Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield.  That is a happy song. What are your happy songs? Sunday happy dance ritual is sounding better and better.

This guy!

I did some crunches last night and holy crap are my abs weak. Just did 20 slow cruches and my abs started to cramp up. I read that could be becuase I am not hydrated enough. So I will be doing cruches more so I will have stronger abs. That will make certain activities better.

It is funny how this works. I do well for 3 weeks, then get sick on the 4th week. It happens almost every time since I have started this work out. Well I am going to move on to power. I feel better and more strong. I enjoy that feeling. I am going to start counting calories again. I did today at least :P.

Yesterday I created an I’m done ritual. Rituals are fun and I believe they are very powerful. I feel like I did a great job today. Go today!